So, tomorrow I go. To have the excess skin and a considerable amount of flab removed from my belly. Abdominoplasty, I think, is the correct term.
And although this is what I want and what I have fought so hard and so long to get, I am terrified. I'm terrified of the operation and I'm terrified of the afterwards.
But I suppose that's only normal. Major surgery should be cause for concern.
In brighter news, I don't know what to bring to wear! At least the weather's nice, so I needen't really worry about trousers, I guess. A light summer dress will probably be most comfortable post operation. But other than the comfort issue, I've no idea what size trousers will fit after the operation. I'm inbetween size 10 and 12 UK now (that's 38/40 Europe and 6/8 US), and I haven't bought any new trousers since I was a 12/14, because I knew I was having the operation. I'm hoping a size 10 will be perfect after the op.
But what to wear *under*??? Probably going to be lovely hospital long johns for the first few weeks anyways, so perhaps I'm worrying for nothing.
Anyways... I'm wittering. That's nerves. I witter when I'm nervous.
My mum's driving me to the hospital tomorrow. Husband is at home with the children. He'll be coming up when I'm having the operation on Tuesday. My best friend lives in the city where I'm having the operation, so she'll look after me, too.
Total loss to date: 124.6 lbs - 56.5 kilo - 8st 12.6lb
I'll let you know how much they take off me!
Wish me luck, keep 'em crossed and... you know... think of me!