Friday, June 03, 2011
Why is there always a "but"? Even in my own mind??? This morning I got on the scale for my weigh in (after re-sparking on Monday) and I lost 1.5 pds...in four days! I should be happy with that, and I was, until I thought of how long it is going to take me to get under 200 pds. And why I am I thinking about the 199 goal now, when my mini goal (very mini) was to see below 220? OMG, the numbers are starting to freak me out!!! How did I allow myself to put all this weight on? I can remember when I was at my lowest...I still wasn't happy with my body, but I was a much more confident person! Now I want to avoid everyone because, in my head, i'm thinking that they are all thinking about my fat!
There is always a "but"....
I'm a nice person BUT I'm fat
I lost 1.5 pds BUT, look how far I have to go
That's a cute shirt BUT, it is for a skinny person
I'm sure there are so many other "But's" that we all could keep listing. Why do I do it to myself? Why can't I simply be happy with getting my food back on track and eating healthy? How do I put on my blinders and keep moving forward? There's always the, BUT, it's so far to go!
*sigh* I'm sure I'll get over the "but" hurdle eventually, I just have to keep picking myself up and dusting off my rear.....hopefully along the way I'll notice it getting smaller. LOL