Soooo, it's the first of the month, baby sis' birthday, new starts, new challenges, new day!!! RIGHT?? For most, yes all of those things are true. BUT for me I refuse to start over!!! By saying that I don't mean that I give up on changing my life. I am simply saying to myself that THIS point where I am, I will not consider this starting over. This is a continuance. True, I was doing soooo well. Looking better, feeling on top of the world, trying not to stress and learn to just give it all over to GOD. Somehow, I started slacking with my workouts but maintaining with the healthy eating. Then the eating slowly got out of control. I went on about a 2 wk binge!! Now when I look in the mirror I lower my chin to my chest to see if a double starts to form, I look at my thighs and see that they touch a little more, my hips seemed to have spread OVERNIGHT, and my shrinking belly...ummmm I don't want to talk about the TWO inches that I added to it!!!!
Now I know, I know none of those things are good. The double chin test is a self conscious thing that I do when I know I have been slacking and my face looks more plump than usual lol. I don't know.....Anywhoo I'm not throwing a pity party at all!! No ma'am, there is no need. I have fallen off a bit and SEEMS like I have even gained a noticeable amount...well I notice. However, its not really bothering me like it would before. I know how much of a WONDERFUL job I did maintaining, being consistent, and putting forth more of an effort on this journey than I have in a long time!
Sure I slipped up and let the taste of food get the best of me, but I WILL NOT start over. I will jump back in head 1st to how I was accomplishing my goals before the slip ups.
See that's where the problem usually comes in for me. The realization that I have gotten off track 1st, then the pity party, then starting over! Uh Uh in my mind starting over takes me back to the beginning. I definitely don't want to go back there!!! I get out all of my weightloss books, papers, charts, you name it and try to re-evaluate, educate....all of that stuff that I have done SOOO many times. Well not today! I accept the fact that I can see a physical change and feel it, of course. But I will just go back to being the healthy me, the way I did a few wks ago.
MY CONTINUED PLAN:
Confiscate my beloved vehicle from the man so that i can join my new friends in a couple of rounds of Zumba at the gym, work the hell out of this Wii fit board and my cardio shape boxing(watch out Billy Blanks), continue to count my points, track my food, measure myself wkly(scales are retarded), batch cook, declutter 15 min a day, take motivational pictures of myself and family, hang out on sparkpeople and earn points and consistency trophies, love the life GOD has chosen for me, and JUST BE THE BEST ME I CAN BE!!! Now who can ask for more than that?
So now its time to lace up the ole shoes, grab a piece of fruit, and get to doing what I know my body loves best; exercising and releasing stress. No starting over, just continuing on with being the
person that I have already become!! It's most definitely MY TIME 2 SHINE!!