Tuesday, May 31, 2011
So, I just took a week off. That's right, a whole week. Why you ask? Because of my period, that's why. I don't know how many times now I have gotten on track for three whole weeks making great progress and then stopped myself in my tracks because of this lovely monthly "gift." Some gift! I feel that I will always be overweight because there is no possible way to make it through that week. I am medicated. I take birth control. There is just nothing that will make it possible for me to get up and moving that week. Being a research scientist, it is hard for me to understand how there is no cure for PMS. And for those of us who have PMDD, we experience super PMS.
So it all started when I was about 12. I got my first period, and expected nothing too serious since in fifth grade sex ed, somebody asked if it would hurt, and the teacher said you don't even feel it. Bull. It hurt so bad I was throwing up every time I got a cramp. From that point on, I had to take off a few days every month from school to just sit in bed and cry, get sick, and sleep. I didn't go to a Dr. until I was 18 because I thought that was what I was supposed to do. I just figured that I was a big baby (and so did my mom), so eventually, I started taking advil and suffering through it. I built up a tollerance for the pain.
Then, a year ago, I met a WONDERFUL doctor who introduced me to Serafem. I have finally gotten my life back after all these years of suffering. I feel like a person again! It is amazing. What's the drawback? I have been 145lb since the 6th grade. Now, on medication, I am 175lbs. Is it worth it? I will NEVER go back! Please believe it is worth it. I will take the extra weight if I have to. Unfortunately, it means I am not happy with myself like I used to be. So, here I am at spark people trying to lose weight. (Plus, I had two surgeries and skin cancer all in this past year which added to the weight gain). However, PMDD keeps getting in my way. UUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!