Sunday, May 29, 2011
When I started my journey on being more active about losing weight I was giving advice after advice after advice on what to do and what not to do. Some of it was taken in consideration but about a good 80% was in one ear and out the other.
What gets me is when people get offended when I don't appear interested with their suggestions. For instance:
Once upon a time a guy told me that I should go on the 4 day diet. Eat all protein on Sunday, Grains on Monday, Veggies on Tuesday, Fruits on Wednesday and continue the cycle. REALLY? YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME?
The HCG diet: take drops or a shot and eat only 500 calories....500 calories? Maybe you didn't get what I was questioning about...FIVE HUNDRED CALORIES? I'm not 2 years old. That's why you lose weight, the drops doesn't do anything but MAYBE suppress your appetite and for a girl like me who has NEVER BEEN SKINNY, nothing but my mind can suppress my appetite.
Everything that has been suggested, I've thought about. But, it's all about eating right + exercising = losing weight. Some have made comments like...
"Well it doesn't seem like that's going well for you."
"Maybe you should rethink your strategy."
"Have you thought about "the surgery""
REALLY? YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDINg ME? RIGHT?
Usually it's those that haven't had a battle like mine. I didn't gain weight a couple of years ago or after I had a child. I've been a big kid since I was born. I was born this way. Can I change it? YES, but I'm tired of those who haven't had a long term struggle like I have telling me what I should do. I get caught up in conversations where people just want to lose 5, 10, 20 pounds and fit into a size 4, 6, 8. I NEED TO LOSE 100 POUNDS! Not 5, not 10, not freaking 20....100. Yes, that is a big number. It is not in my comfort zone in telling people that I need to do that. But, I have made it my comfort zone.
I have been comfortable with myself because I am a strong woman and I know that I am beautiful (conceded...at times yes, but blame that on my 6 brothers who told me I was beautiful every day). My father told me last year,"You are the most strongest person that I know; physically, mentally and emotionally." That will forever stick with me. I need to be as physically strong as I am mentally and sometimes emotionally (...lol).
Another thing is how can I take food out of my comfort zone when it's been there for so long? I am seriously working on it. I can work out every day like a BEAST, but if I eat Burger King, Whataburger, ribs, hotdogs and cookies I know I'm not going to get anywhere. But I AM FIGURING IT OUT. That's the important thing. "Let me figure it out and you just support me," is my new saying.....
My new motto: Just because I've Never Been Skinny, doesn't mean I will never live healthy....
That felt good to get off my chest...THANK YOU!