Sunday, May 29, 2011
This year was supposed to be about me. Getting healthy. I was doing very well and then tragedy struck. I lost my mother very suddenly and completely unexpected. She had a heart attack and never regained consciousness. In the process we learned that her arteries were severely blocked. 90% in one and 70% in the other two.
Of course your first thought I that I don't want that to happen to me. Eat healthy healthy healthy. On the other side life is so short why deprive yourself of all the good stuff. I never felt like I was depriving myself at all. But in the time of grief it's one of the thoughts. And then, you find yourself eating all the things your loved one loved, like you are eating for them as well.
In the 3 weeks since I lost my mother, she passed May 6, 2011, I've gained 14lbs!!!! And have hardly anything to wear as a result.
I finally decided to seek help and my doctors have put me on some meds to get me thru this difficult time. So I don't just want to sleep and mope around. Of course that is all part of it, but I'm expected back to work next week and need the motivation to get up and go and be productive at work. Hopefully it helps so I can also be a good parent to my kids, as laying around or sleeping is of no benefit to them either.
Now is the time to regain my self and get back to my goals of making 2011 a healthy year for me.
I miss my mother dearly but know that she is always watching and helping me be stronger every day.