Saturday, May 28, 2011
I am so excited about my life and am very much looking forward to the future. When I tell people that my life changed on January 12, 2011, I really mean it. Thatís the day I realized that I meant more to myself, to my family and to my friends than I was giving myself credit for. Thatís the day I joined SprakPeople. Thatís the day I figured out it is possible to eat healthy and exercise and it feels good to do it. Itís not about deprivation and hating how my life is going, which is how I viewed these changes before January 12. Itís about living a life that is positive and meaningful and that includes treating your body right.
Iím not going to say that every minute of every day goes perfectly, because it doesnít. But the possibility of some forms of perfection of my life feels achievable Ė no, IT IS achievable. I know this because I see it every day. Not only has my body become leaner, stronger and more resilient, my mind has become sharper, and my attitude more positive. I still have my ďmomentsĒ but allow myself to have them and donít let them consume me or become a way of life anymore.
I canít believe that on October 16 I will run the Nike Womenís Half Marathon in San Francisco. As I ran with my Team In Training group this morning, it became even more clear how lucky I am to have found my new life. I ran through Alton Baker Park, one of our townís most popular running destinations, with pride. I passed other runners with a hearty hello and a smile on my face. I have dreamt for years of being able to do this and my dream is coming true. I have searched so long for happiness through other means Ė food, alcohol, cigarettes, men, shopping (among others), and was never able to find it. I have found it, and it feels amazing.
Iíve been blogging about my Ĺ marathon training on my TNT page, which has really helped me focus on whatís most important right now. I would like to share that link with you here, because it is really meaning a lot to me.
Thank you for reading my ramblings.