Saturday, May 28, 2011
For me, leading a healthy life has meant being aware of my actions and taking an assertive role in the food and fitness decisions that I make. When I lose that focus, I lose sight of my ultimate health goals, and let myself get distracted by temporary gratification. I succumb to food cravings, use unhealthy treats to soothe an emotional void, and talk myself out of exercise. It becomes all too easy to be a passive recipient of cheetos, croissants, and cookies. I don't look closely at my daily choices, or the image in the mirror. Food, weight, health and clothing sizes all become fuzzy concepts, ceasing to be relevant enough for me to make a choice to change.
And then one day, I have the courage to look at myself and I realize, as I've known all along, that I don't like what I see. I have always felt that in order to know where you want to go, you must first realize where you are. And to do that you must take a hard look at yourself and to always keep it real. Face the number on the scale, face your food choices. Stand up and be accountable for the decisions you have made.
So here I am keeping it real. It is May 28th and I am 157 lbs. Instead of losing 5 lbs by June 05 as was my original goal I have gained 2. The reason I have gained that weight is because of the path that I have taken. 3 weeks ago I hurt my back which has kept me from running. That is a reason why I have not been as active, but is no excuse for the food choices that I made. Chips, chocolate, cookies became part of my daily diet. I stopped sparking, stopped weighing myself and let an injury as well as personal issues in my life drag me away from my goals.
I know the path that leads to weight gain, and it is time to take a different one. I am letting go of the "all or none" mentality and I recommitting to my weight loss goals. I am doing it to be healthy, happy and fabulous! I am back to tracking food, rejoining the Spark community and focusing on myself.
My new goals: Be back to 155lbs by June 05 (lose 2 lbs)
Be 150 by July 05
145 by Aug 05
I can do it! The thing I love about SP is how it returns me to my goals, give me focus and allows me to share with you, oh unknown reader. Thanks for reading my blog!