Wednesday, May 25, 2011
hi everyone i am back.before i update i will do the terrified part even if it is out of the order of things.the terrified was of my flight home yesturday.i discharged myself out of hospital in walesfor several reasons.the first being the dr had put ayman on antibiotics,my sister was ill and i didnīt want to put more stress on her or leave zakariya in a time when he needed me especially as we werenīt at home and lotfi and his brothers werenīt with us.this was the first time my sister had met him so they didnbīt know each other that well and my sister is totally not use to small children.the second reason was i was in a ward with 4 beds the two oppersite had two old women in it but the bed next to me had a man in it(yes you did read right a man)not only is it against my religion to share the room with him i just wouldnīt have been comfortable there.my dr he said the same and that she wouldnīt have stayed either and she isnīt muslim,lol.the third reason the dr said if they did the test and they came back positive i wouldnīt be allowed to fly.they think that i might have another blood clot in my lung despite me being on blood thinners.my INR was 1,7 and apparently when it is below 2 i have as much chance as everyone else to get a blood clot the dimser test came back unconclusive,so she couldnīt say i have a blood clot but she couldnīt say i havenīt either.this is what happened to me last time it was only after going to neuclear medicine that they found the last blood clots there.anyway the dr double my blood thinners and made mepromise as soon as i got home to make an appointment for the dr which i did.but to make matters worse on monday my sisterīs best friend died from a blod clot on the lungs which really freaked my sister out that i was still planning to fly the next day especially as my dad died from a blood clot on the lungs as well it travelled to his heart and he died.i tried not to let her and the rest of my family know how terrified i really was about the flight.i had talked it over with my husband though and he said we all die when we die it is out of our control no matter what it is written the day we are born and we canīt change that so with that in view and my need to be with my family i took the risk though i was so knackered after and could fast not hold my self straight.had the drs appointment today my IRN work was 3.7 which is a bit high she said we are going to have to try and get it more spot on and has lowered the medication.we are to see how it goes in the next two weeks and if it doesnīt sort itself out i have to go into hospiotal.she has also given me some painkillers for the pains in my right lung.so there is the terrified bit both the dr in england and now my own dr thinks i have the same blood disorder as my sister,because of my blood clots and the fact that i have had three miscarriages and also nearly lost all three of my boys as well.it is rare and called,antiphospholipid antibody syndrome.they have it in the spark A-Z of health.if i do have it it means i will have to have blood thinners for the rest of my life.so ther you have it.
wales was not all bad though.the funeral went well and my brother started speaking to me after 13 years.he stopped speaking to me because i had turned muslim.didnīt even speak to me or stay in the same room as me when my father died and at his funeral.maybe the fact that my brother will be 60 this week might have something to do with his mellowing ,that and my cousin and aunty dieing to near one another.also i got to see a few of my family and friends.
on the bad side i put on 4lbs in weight so it was really a swings and roundabout trip.
at the moment i am waiting to see if the rectadelt is working for zakariya,another ten minutes to go and if it doesnīt work by then i have to phone the ambulance.at least writting this blog kept me sane and stop worrying so much about zakariya.he is sleeping but coughing badly in his sleep breathing is also bad.
thanks for reading and listening as usual.keep smiling,karen