Tuesday, May 24, 2011
As some of you may know, I have been dealing with some depression. One of the issues that has been bothering me was my hubby's weight.
Yesterday was my 24th Wedding Anniversary. I spent our 20th Anniversary in the ICU, wondering if he was going to live. A few days later he had a 6-bypass done. It is a blessing that he is alive. Since then he lost about 30 pounds and then started putting the pounds back on until he was almost 50 pounds heavier than he was when he had the surgery.
I explained to DH that it is difficult to make plans, knowing that in 3-5 years I would be a widow. I also told him I couldn't be in charge of his diet and I didn't want the job of Diet Police. He said he didn't realize he was adding to the stress in my life and talked to his doctor.
Right now we are both on a rather restrictive low-carb diet, and the pounds are beginning to move again. Now I just have to keep moving forward for myself, even if he decides to quit again.
My next assignment is to make some short term goals. I can do this if I just keep moving forward and not let fear paralyze me where I am.