Tuesday, May 24, 2011
So, while I was pregnant, all 9 months, I was so determined to get back on track right after Riley was born... And now, here she is 3 months old and I'm not on track. I keep over eating or eating things that aren't good for me, and I hate it. I'm breast feeding Riley and I know that no matter what I eat, she will get the vitamins she needs and it'll be MY body lacking and some how I have lost my self worth again.
I have to figure out how to feel like the old me, the one where I KNEW I was worth getting healthy... I miss the confidence I had. Some of my old thoughts of anti-eating have been resurfacing and I hate it... I know that I have to do it healthy if I want it to stay.
I've lost my way and I can't find my way back...