Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I relieved my dear BIL this morning to care for Dad today. He was bad fidgety so I gave him the anxiety medicine left for him.
He was fevered so I used a cold compress on his head and it had to be changed every few minutes. I was a bit distressed that I couldn't get him calmed when the Hospice Nurse arrived and she said she just had to use the potty and then we would take care of dad.
In just that couple of minutes, no more than 10 feet away, I came back and Pop was quiet - too quiet. I was checking his chest for breath when he moved his head. He looked so pale.
The Hospice Nurse listened to his heart, took blood pressure and finally his pulse but My Dad had gone on to be with Mom just that quickly. 5 days from his decision to stop dialysis to the end of his journey and he went in his sleep, cause will most likely be listed as renal failure.
I have no regrets and am thankful that he was allowed to choose the time and the place. Thank you for all your prayers and words of comfort. I feel so blessed right now.
Yes, there is a terrible void in my heart - but I will see him and Mom again when my time comes.