So, we all know I've been struggling this round of BLC, right? I started 2011 off w/ a full head of steam, just tearing thru this weight loss thing, all gung-ho & excited about hitting Healthy BMI by Memorial Day.
Ha! Memorial Day is next week, & I would have to lose 15 lbs or so to hit that goal! It ain't gonna happen.
So instead of moaning & whining about this or that - I respect your time, and frankly, who has time to read long drawn-out blogs anyway? - I'm just gonna cut to the chase.
I sent an email to the Mocha cappies yesterday, I think, requesting "floater" status. All the good stuff for BLC happens when I can't - or chose not to - do it. BLC cranks it up when I am least available to participate or track or do whatever it is that everybody is doing. So, instead of feeling left out or dragging my team down, I'm floating.
I have decided to do what I can do when I can do it and not worry about what I can't do or don't do or choose not to do, when everybody else is doing it. I'm giving it what I can, which is less - about half - of what I was giving it in the 1st quarter of the year. There may be a point in my life when I can go all out again, and at that time, I'll become an active member again.
So, tonight, I'm setting my alarm for 4:15, sleeping in my work-out clothes, putting my glasses on my Bible in the living room - not next to the computer & all that temptation for distraction (a-hem!), and going to bed at a decent hour, even if that means I don't watch all of Dancing with the Stars (TV is such a waste of time, anyway!). In the morning, I would like to try some form of Bootcamp video (Spring into Shape is just crazy!) & move my thrift-store step into the living room & actually take the step video I borrowed from the library out of the case & put it into the DVD & hit the play button.
I would like to do that Mon-Thurs. Weekends, I track & exercise when I can.
That's my plan, & I'm sticking to it (for now).
Rich & I went for a hike today (notice how I'm trying to stretch out the neck flab for the picture? Hahaha!). The 1st hike of the year, at Lighthouse Park. It's a relatively easy-rated hike, with some hills & such, and I wasn't surprised that it was harder than it has been in the past (but not as hard as when I was at my heaviest). I canNOT quit altogether. I want to have an active summer (when we can). Today proved to me that I do NOT want to go backwards any more. But maybe my forwards is just gonna have to be at a different pace - my pace.
No more comparisons - to my previous performance or others'
No more unrealistic expectations - besides to do the best I can with what I have
Just trying to keep it real & make the better choice (just like my sig line says).