Monday, May 23, 2011
But who are you, a human being, to talk back to God? “Shall what is formed say to the one who formed it, ‘Why did you make me like this?’” Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for special purposes and some for common use?
Ever have those days where you keep getting hit over the head? That's where I'm at about Africa. (See my blog "Really, God?") Yesterday I'm seeing the continent outline through shapes of a sea on a bible map and being further nudged with a sermon about what it means to be a sheep. "Baaaa!" I'm a sheep! So today my devotion is based on a verse that in another translation reads: "Who are you -- anyone who talks back to God?" Well, yeah! I have been whiney about this Africa thing! I have been saying, "You know this is not MY dream." "Why me, God?" "Are you sure about this God?" "I'm not adequate." I've been dragging my feet by not talking with the hubby about it seriously until yesterday. I've had the passport applications in my "to do" pile since we got back from Florida in November.
Over and over again, God sets out in His Word that He is in control. He desires to change us from the inside out--renewing our minds, starving our self-destructive tendencies, and teaching us to form new habits by respecting His authority. (Beth Moore)
Today I must continue praying because I keep being pushed with thoughts, etc. about this and yet I'm really not fearful. That's been a big thing for me...I'm really not afraid of going. I am more unsure because of outside things. How many shots? Ugh! Needing different clothing to follow the cultural dress code. Wanting to be thinner before I would go. How will our son handle this with his autistic behaviors. It's all exterior human stuff. I need to be praying for God's spiritual will to be accomplished instead. I must pray for these human roadblocks to be seen as a checklist instead of room for Satan to move in and bother me.
After all...this is what it is all about.