Not out of OZ yet- there's some light around the Forrest?
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Well, I'm trying 2 pick up where I'd left off. More Storms R on the way as I type, both literally and in Life...
Blue has improved so much that he's almost his old Grumpy Self. We go into the Vet for re-check Monday. We will cover what costs for his issues with glands and cysts.
Now, about me? I have MRI scheduled for Monday, 23 May. Seems I've done from bad to worse- disc out of alignment of neck, lower spine, with Sciatica, degenerative bone disease, and possible nerves involved. The Ortho called some of it- Scoliosis? Haven't had time to look into it. I had a bad experience at the Cardiologist with the Hubby. While worrying over his Treadmill Test. I started having pains in my Left Arm, this being my "good side"? I mentioned it to the Receptionist- she had me rushed to the back, the Dr came in and the rest was another Nightmare. Dr said I had a Blockage in the left side of my neck. They all started racing around hooking me up to a Heart Monitor, etc. Meantime, Hubby comes in and without going into details? He threw a childish FIT- it almost got him into jail and me into a mental home. It got really ugly- he was escorted out. And the Medical team finished with me didn't want to send me home, I insisted- knowing the Hubby was really Whack-O; it was bad for us for 2 days- worse 4 me. Thinking I'm dying and he doesn't care and had threatened to throw me out. He's still convinced I'm Hypochondriac? Despite all the tests, Dr's looking him in the eyes and telling him all my health issues- the man is definitely either in denial or crazy? I just have to pray that I get straightened out and that we 2 can resolve it or end it. I can't keep dealing with crisis after crisis alone and still put up with him.
I had to do an Ultra Sound the next day. Drove myself despite the Severe Storms and came back home and napped until I had to return the Heart Monitor- surprisingly, despite an all night of listening to the Hubby rant- the Test came back fine. Blood Pressure is too high, wonder why? LOL And the Cardiologist is convinced I'm Depressed? The Cardiologist even blamed ME for the Hubbies actions. He reported me to the Insurance (or someone in his offices?) Insurance CALLED me, and interrogation me for about 2 hrs. Questioning ALL of my Health and was I taking care of myself or possibly suicidal. I was- I wanted to go after all of THEM... Be ready people, you are being watched and reported on about everything to everyone that has anything to do with your Health and Mental welfare. And probably things we don't even know. There is no longer any freedom to have illnesses anymore without being blamed. And the Hubby? Not (1) called him. Funny that I was the one chosen and not him? The Cardiologist actually sympathized with his actions and put it off 2 his being possibly Diabetic. THAT by the way- wasn't reported to anyone and he didn't refer him to any other Specialist either.
The Ultra Sound did come back with nothing found- as most of my testings do. Funny though, the day I went into the Cardiologist- he insisted he still heard "something", even had several Nurses listen to confirm his finding. He finally just sent me home with a script for Zocor- High Cholesterol and screwed up Thyroid levels is all they found wrong. I get tired of defending my every thought, deed, and action. And am just as always, taking one day, one step at a time. I almost wish that stupid preacher had been right? Rapturing me may be the only way I'll ever find all those answers and finally have peace and happiness. Sorry to sound so glum- but not much Light in my Forrest. AND I'm gaining weight, just trying to maintain would be enough right now.