Saturday, May 21, 2011
I hope you are getting to sleep in and can wake up to this gorgeous day at your leisure. It's a great day to be outside in most places, including here. Try to do something fun this weekend that makes you feel less stressed and brightens your day. Think of doing those things you might have put off like reading a book, or painting you finger and toenails, or getting together with the girls.
You work hard and deserve to be pampered from the inside out so have your favorite healthy breakfast or lunch and make plans for the day including some quiet time and exercise time. You can slip, that's okay, it happens to everybody, what matters is what you do when you slip. If you choose to eat two pieces of your favorite pizza instead of one slice and a salad, you can still probably work it into your calorie budget (napkins to absorb the grease off the top is always great) but if you let the two slices get you down and decide to eat 1/2 the pizza instead and binge that is setting yourself up for failure, you deserve better. So if you really want the two slices, have them, just walk 20 minutes and make sure to eat a little less at each meal to balance it out. Every decision is an opportunity to succeed and feel better about ourselves, so keep smiling, keep a positive winning attitude, stay in the game, this journey called life can be as wonderful as you let it be.
"We are judged by what we finish, not by what we start." - Anonymous
As a side note for those that pray or send warm thoughts, I would really appreciate them. I get my brain test results on June 3rd and I'm nervous, scared, and excited. I'm tired of not knowing what is wrong with my cognitive skills and my memory. If you didn't know me a while back you might not know that I had the brain tests because the doctors are trying to determine if I had a stroke when I watched Adam die. I don't have pictures in my head anymore, I no longer know what my son looks like and it is very painful for me. If you show me a picture of him, there is a good chance I will recognize him but it isn't guaranteed. I recently saw a picture of myself and didn't know it was me. I also lost almost all of my memories and considering I'm 40 that is a lot of memories to lose.
They are supposed to tell me my weaknesses and let me know if there are ways to improve in those areas or if I need to come to terms with those and will let me know what strengths I have so I can continue to grow in those areas. I'm trying to be patient and trying to think of a way to handle the worst case scenario which would be spending the rest of my life never being able to recall what my son looks like but I will feel better after I am armed with information.
In His Grace,
Amber, Adam's Mommy Forever