My Current Motivation
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Hello! First off, I just wanted to vent off my frustration from last week. I felt so guilty because I wasn't choosing healthier choices although I was staying within my calorie range, mainly on the higher end. I didn't exercise as hard as I'd been or like to. I was just hoping it's not because my mind turned the switch off just because I accomplished a 5K. I remember from before, that when I reached a certain goal, I would just go back to my old ways. I have to keep reminding myself that it's different this time around and that I have to keep going even though I'm feeling comfortable. I was feeling so fat by Sunday night...not a great feeling at all. I'm so scared and paranoid of having the weight that I worked so hard for creep up on me, but I guess I have to be because just like a recovering alcoholic or drug addict, I know I may still have a relapse or two. I hope my conscience is stronger...
On the other hand, we finally booked our vacation to Hawaii for this coming July and I am so excited. So excited, in fact, that it kickstarted my motivation again to work even harder so I can look really good by that time. I want my pictures to look good. Who knows, I might even wear a bikini, lol! Maybe not that far but at least I'll feel comfortable enough to wear a bathing suit. Yesterday, to start things off, I ran 5K, then Zumba, then strength training. I pretty much lost >800 calories last night. I hope to keep a streak going and lose at least 10 or more pounds by then. Wish me luck and root me on!