Monday, May 16, 2011
So, today I weighed in for what was the end of the BL 17 challenge that I was in. After eight weeks I had a one pound gain. Niiiiice..... But, I DID lose one inch.... in my boobs. Hubby will be real pleased about that one...LOL!
So, obviously I was not in the right mindset for the challenge. I wouldn't even have weighed myself if it weren't for the challenge. But, today, I am starting anew. And I'm doing things the way I want to do them. I am not doing any challenges. I am not doing anyone's meal plan. I am not training for any kind of exercise ideal. I am doing what works for me. And what works for me is taking life one day at a time, one meal at a time, one exercise session at a time. ONE GOAL AT A TIME!
The one goal I am going to work on to start is simply this: Make better choices. That's it. I'm gonna go type it on my Sparkpage under my program right now. Okay, done.
I am eating what I want. I'm not eating EVERYTHING I want, but if I want to have a V-8 because I want to treat myself, then gosh darn it I will have a V-8 even if it is crazy high in sodium. If a V-8 is a treat for me I'm doing it! If I want to have a bowl of cereal for a snack then I will. There are worse things to eat, which I will not be eating, not because I am depriving myself, but because I am doing what is best for me and those things are not it. I can have them, if I want, but I don't want!
I changed my Sparkpage, and I re-arranged and deleted some stuff. I have a nice even number of 50 sparkfriends. I have a nice even number of six sparkteams that fit on my page. I have OCD a bit, LOL.
I deleted a bunch of foods on my favorites. I think tilapia smells like a barn and kinda tastes like it too, so no more eating it! I don't really care for the 100% whole wheat bread I was eating, so why am I eating it? Off it comes. I get Country Hearth Honey Wheat. It is not whole grain but at least it doesn't have HFCS in it! I am going to make healthier choices, but I am going to eat food I LIKE!
I'm going to do the exercise I want when I want. Right now that will be Zumba and going for walks. I will do strength training sometime. Just not right now. I have to get the habits going that I really like to do first. If I try to do something I don't really like to do and therefore, don't want to do, I'm not gonna stick with it.
I don't need to be in a hurry for anything. I don't need to try some fancy plan that is so strict I feel like I am torturing myself. Yeah, I have my 20th high school reunion this fall. But I am not going to be skinny by then even if I was totally stict and stuck to a plan perfectly. And who says I even have to go if I don't want to?
I do have my doctor appointment in October that I want to have lost at least 30 pounds for. But I'm not gonna kill myself to do it. I will plan on weighing less at the next appointment. Even if it's one pound less I will have succeeded. I've got to stop being so hard on myself.
I feel so free already!