Monday, May 16, 2011
Well a few months ago, I basically gave up. For about the millionth time. Some of that probably had to do with the fact that I stopped taking my anti-depressants. It is a unwise thing to do, and one that I have done more than once. And quite frankly I really don't have a good excuse as to why. I run out and then get anxious about going to get it. So I quit taking it. Which makes me more anxious and then totally and completely miserable. But no need to dwell. It happened and I am moving on.
A few days ago I went to Barnes & Noble to get a book my therapist suggested. While I was there I went and looked around the bargain books section and sitting there in hardback for $6 was "The Spark", so I said what the hell let me see what the book is all about. When I got home and I started reading it all started to make sense. Then I noticed that it is published by Hay House, started by Louise Hay. It seemed a sign from the universe!
My favorite self- improvement author is Louise Hay. What she says just touches something inside me. She explained to me in one book what therapists had been trying to teach me for years. It is all about loving yourself and how you talk to yourself. That has always been a hard one for me. I am my own worst critic.... and I can criticize with the best of them! So slowly I have begun to realize when that critical little voice starts. I try to patiently ask it to please be quiet, that we aren't going to talk to ourself like that anymore. And before anyone thinks I'm REALLY crazy the we is me and my inner child.
I find that the things Chris says in "The Spark" also just make sense. Setting very small short term goals that I can actually achieve, as opposed to huge seemingly unreachable goals. It's kinda funny because all this time I've said to myself "Oh I don't need that book. What is it gonna tell me that I can't learn on the website. I've read diet books before and know what I need to do". I couldn't possibly have been more wrong!
So to anyone out there who doesn't think they need to read it give it a try... you might just be surprised!!