Sunday, May 15, 2011
I talked to my husband about turning one of the rooms in our house into a space for me to work out in, that way I wouldn't have to be out of the house for more than 10 hours a day going to and from the gym. It wouldn't be expensive, I don't need cardio equipment, I could use a jump rope, or go for a run, I just want to have some weights and bands, maybe a bench, and a full length mirror. I already have an exercise ball, yoga mat, and some weights, so it wouldn't be too hard to set a little something up. My husband told me, why should we take time to move stuff around for you to keep working out maybe for another month, at the most. It was like he smacked me in the face, yes it's true I have yo-yo'd in the past, but it hurts to know that my husband has absolutely ZERO faith in me, I don't want to eat a ton, and I already did my workout for today, but I do want to cry. I really wish that I could take his lack of faith and turn it into motivation, but I don't know if I can do that, it's not something that I've ever done before, usually when people lack faith in me, I live up to their lack of faith. My feelings are so hurt right now, just taking it one second at a time, and I'm not going to let it discourage my workout tomorrow...heck, maybe I'll even go for another run tonight after I get off work, maybe I just have to let myself be motivated, I am going to prove him wrong!!