Saturday, May 14, 2011
first thank you for checking up on me while i have been absent!
sparking and internet is hand in hand lol.
netbook still out there somewhere being repaired ;p
I don't feel comfortable writing my blogs on my hubby's comp LOL
don't have the free flow feeling.
tons to update, not much time.... so i will summarize
1. HALF MARATHON
picking up the package today ;p
race is tomorrow... will definitely post my experience tomorrow ;p
2. BUZZ KILL
as you know the last few entries here i was on a high on a high!
i was feeling sooo awesome!
and it all crashed!
best to explaing it as...
when you have a crush....you are all excited you don't know what is instore!
then you initate and find the guy/girl is ok wil going out.... you start the ball rolling!
2nd date.... 3rd date.... you keep going and things seem going well!
Then you find either.....he/she likes you only as friend....or that it's just a lot of work!
lol what I mean is as friend...you are sad....but it doesn't mean relationship ends there! you still can hangout!
with my lifestyle change, it felt like "now, ok, i got here... now what!" am i happy, not really, i want more! I am still looking! sigh!
But i am too tired from the rush to get here, to continue!
so I took a break! i have not stepped on the scale... but i think it may have gone up!
but i think i look fine,.... no pics!
it's ok... I need this.... some normalcy!
ok so, the dating is going well, or the bf/gf relationship is established!
it feels like WORK to keep it together!
this is HOW I FEEL last 2 week!
I decided to cut down on the 5 miler and p90x for the last 2 week!
HOLY Fat batman!
I mean... the packs I was working on, POOF GONE!
So it got me thinking! WHAT WHAT DO I WANT!
I do want to accomplish my abs of steel challenge! but it means to continue that regime forever?
i mean these past few days, my hubby "forgot" what i looked like before...
was a little disappointed that I turned "flabby"...or he can tell! (good way, nothing bad)
but i got the WOW i work so hard, and 2 wks of slacking gets me HERE?
and my slacking is still 15 miles a week and 3 p90x and zumba!
what do i do?
still working it out!
i am HAPPY where I am, my size 4 jeans don't zip up anymore!
I know its SALT SALT SALT!
and the HM training!
I didn't run as much, I don't want to injure myself, legs feeling funny!
after the HM tomorrow, I have no more races til SEPT!
I want to focus on the p90x and run shorter nd only 3x week instead of 5-6x
I want to find and MAINTAINABLE forever solution.
and if the wieght comes off slower...whatever ;p
b/c now i am eating as much as when I was training and working out less!
SO as of next week, I going to restart.
my stomach stretched and so I need to go back to tracking and being accountable!
I can do this!
sorry for the ramble!
i didn't know how to write this blog