Here's some background info about my craziness. I usually follow an ayurvedic lifestyle. You can look that up if you like; I won't get into all the details here. Most people who share my dominant constitutional type are skinny people who have trouble putting on weight, they chat incessantly, and often worry needlessly over tiny details etc.
So, by following this lifestyle for a couple years, I no longer had anxiety, insomnia, arthritis etc. Plus my memory has improved. The downside is that I gained a lot of weight, because I have never been one of those skinny people. That is, seemingly, the one trait I do not have in common with those people.
So, I reduced my fat intake, counted calories, did intense cardiovascular workouts etc. All the things that are not recommended for my type. I've lost a lot of weight, but I've also gained a lot of stress, and some insomnia and the return of arthritis.
This was very disappointing for me, since I've really enjoyed these workouts I'm doing. Plus, all the exercises that are recommended for me, cycling, walking, swimming, dancing, yoga, are not always practical, and are not always as efficient at burning calories. (Yes, I love hot yoga, but I can't afford to pay for it, and their schedule doesn't sync well enough with mine to make paying for it worthwhile.)
So, I've decided I'm going to continue doing the workouts I love, Turbojam and Turbofire, but I'm going to make time to do some calming yoga afterward, and I've decided to give up counting calories. It makes me neurotic. I'm tired of complaining to coworkers that I gained a pound, and they either look at me like I'm crazy, or smile in a "I think you're crazy for worrying about it" way. Here's an example:
Last week after deciding to alter my diet back closer to what it was, I noticed I gained a pound. My husband took me out to dinner for Mother's Day, and I ordered the Butter Masala Prawns, which were worth it, and the next day I had gained another pound. I was so upset, but I didn't change my diet back. I just continued on with my plan, and here it is four days later. I've lost those two pounds, and an inch from my butt, in spite of eating a couple cookies, and full fat cheese, and walnut sourdough bread. I even ate a croissant with roasted apples and pecans.
So this is what I've learned from my craziness: sometimes you just have to listen to your body and trust yourself.