In a weird place...
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Hey Sparkers!! Well, I havent blogged in awhile! Life has been INSANE!! We moved suddenly and my husband is in a six month interview/process for his dream job in a different state, so we might be moving again AHH...so I haven't been putting MY ALL into Spark or weight loss in the last 3 months. I have been maintaining though. I still workout out and Monday thru Thursday I log my food (on paper or on Spark) and do awesome.....THEN Friday morning comes..I do my weekly weigh in..and it usually says 150.0 (to the ounce). If I am lucky it will say 149.something. So then I eat an okay lunch...then we ALWAYS go out to dinner on Friday (and I am so tired from being strict all week, I usually eat something bad)...then I will get dessert later on in the night since I already did bad at dinner...then I will stay up late and usually eat popcorn or something else more horrible. Then I get up Saturday and eat out and eat crappy ALL DAY, and then I feel guilty Sunday and end up eating half good/half bad...I weigh in Monday morning and I am usually 155!!! AHHHHHHHH...so repeat the week again...by Friday I will be 150..and it starts alll over. So I gain and lose the same 5 lbs EVERY week for MONTHS!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???????????? I am sooo close to my goal..I just want to be 140 and I will be happy. I have been doing this sooo long , I am just burnt out...but at the same time, I am still not happy at this weight AT ALL. I get all these emails everyday with people that need to lose over 100lbs and ask me what to do...and I need to TAKE my own advice (I tell them to start they need to dedicate 30 days with NOT one cheat)...Do I really not want to get to 140??? Its also hard when EVERYWHERE I go, everyone tells me how amazing I look!! I know that sounds like a fabulous thing, but then it gets me too comfortable in my weight. At the end of the day I have LOTS of fat and flab that still needs to go. I am still technically 5lbs overweight. SO I am taking volunteers to come up to Michigan and beat some sense into me...I HAVE COME SO FREAKIN FAR, why AM I SABOTAGING MYSELF-TEN POUNDS is NOTHING compared to what I have lost!!! GRRRR...that it! Their was no point! Just had to get my feelings out in hopes I wont blow it AGAIN this weekend!!
My new favorite pic of my daughter and I :) HOpe the next one is 10 lbs lighter!!