Monday, May 09, 2011
Well, our secrets are what get us. So here goes. I set a goal in late March to lose 10 lbs by June 1. And started out really well. Tracking my food, lots of exercise, REALLY limiting evening eating. And did really well. Got as close as a 9 lb weight lose. But then life came along. Two trips out of town. The flu. Too tired to really follow my program. So here I am. Three weeks to go and three pounds to go. Very doable. But I have to DO it. I can feel and am enjoying the weight lose and the better shape my body is in. Being stronger. But I find that I want to just settle for where I am now, rather than really pursue my goal. And finish what I set out to do. The urge to 'sell my self short' is SO STRONG.
So I'm writing to put this out in the open. Hopefully with your support and encouragement, I can get back to it. I want to feel like a success. Not just an 'also ran,' pretty good, but not quite there. There is sort of this battle inside about not being too hard on myself and demanding perfection, and selling myself short of what I really set out to do. My goal is realistic. And within reach. So today is Monday. Time for another fresh start. On June 1, I really want to be able to say that I reached the goal I've been circling for the last almost 5 years.
I guess now I just have to do it. Thanks for listening.