Sunday, May 08, 2011
Mike and I are both fairly stressed out right now, and I've had limited time to do much of anything. He's finishing up his 2nd Master's while simultaneously doing all cooking and cleaning (and running to the store, etc.) while I'm closing out the spring semester on 3 courses, trying to prep for the 3 courses I'll be teaching this summer - and oh yeah, finishing my dissertation. We both are hanging in there, at times just barely, with running and staying on track with food intake - nothing like a little/lot of stress, day in and out.
But it's about the journey. As we move toward this crucial 'endpoint,' after which much may change (I have applied for a job elsewhere, he will be looking for one but we don't know where), there is already so much to celebrate.
What I celebrate today (and every day, in fact) is our relationship, friendship, and marriage. Today is our one year anniversary, though we've been friends for 10 years. We're still sappy about it, and I hope we stay that way - when we're not working hard in our respective offices at either end of the house, we share (truly) silly in-jokes and wonderful philosophical discussions, sometimes in the early dark of morning. We have our small rituals, like walking through the garden and discussing growth we see (and here, too, he deserves credit: every speck of earth and grass blade has been dealt with by him, every growing tomato, chard, bean, lily, petunia - all his work, and part of daily pleasure for both of us).
It's really something, you know, when your life partner gives so much. He does so in the most generous way, and I only hope that what I give offers him as much joy and peace as he gives me.
This journey is filled with joy. Sure, we could spend time feeling guilty - over things undone, or thinking about the inevitable sadnesses we've all got. At moments, I do that, and that's ok. But not everyone is as fortunate as we are, and it's important to spend time acknowledging the joy. Good thing I do so every single day.
My favorite husband: I think I'll keep'im