Time to take a careful look at myself and what I want and how I'm going to get it.
Yesterday, fuelled by raging PMT and carb cravings, I made some really unwise food choices.
This morning, lying in bed and feeling a bit sorry for myself, I regretted the unwise choices I had made yesterday and started to think about what I want and how I can get there.
Obviously, I'm not going to wake up one morning and find that some kindly fairy has waved a wand and that my 35 surplus pounds have magically disappeared overnight. That might be what I want, but it's just not going to happen.
BUT, the revelation occurred to me today that OK, it certainly won't happen tomorrow morning, or the day after, or even next week some time, but that IF I take better care of myself and how I feed and exercise myself, then one morning I WILL wake up and find that those 35lb have gone. If I lose weight at 1lb a week, then that magical day will be 35 weeks from now. If I lose it at 1.5lb a week, that will be 22 weeks from now. OK, so both those dates are in the future. But will those dates - and those results - be in MY future? Or will I still plod on, wearing my lard overcoat and leggings (and extra chins), because I didn't care enough about myself to try? 22 weeks away is 9 October; 35 weeks from now is 8 January next year.
OK, so they're a bit disappointingly far off when my inner toddler is screaming "BUT I WANT IT NOW!!!!" and there are the known hurdles of summer holidays, having to feed the family (2 teenage boys and a husband who all eat like there's no tomorrow, but don't have the same problems with their weight that I do) to deal with.
So, moving forward:
I WILL track all the daft things I ate yesterday, as a wake-up call to myself, then stop beating myself up about it and move on.
I WILL track all my food faithfully for the next 2 weeks (and hopefully after that as well)
I WILL drink my water and record it for the next week (as I've been pretty slack about that and I don't think it's done me any good - maybe if I'd been fuller with water then those doughnuts and those fruit gums would have been just a shade less tempting?)
I WILL record my pedometer steps every day (who knows, perhaps that will encourage me to walk some more?)
I WILL take care of myself. If I can't care for me, how can I expect anyone else to?
I WILL ask for support and encouragement for those all-too-frequent moments when my motivation is wearing thin.