Saturday, May 07, 2011
Early today, I was doing my “old lady fast walk” on the treadmill at the fitness center, watching mindless television which I never do at home—“Say Yes to the Dress” I think it was... I was moving, going fast, perspiring nicely. There was nobody else there; it was great! After about 20 minutes a young, toned fellow leapt onto the treadmill one over from where I was. He cranked that baby up until he was running about a gazillion miles an hour on that thing. Suddenly, I felt as if I were hardly moving.
That old, familiar feeling of “What am I doing here? I don’t belong here. This is for young/skinny/good-looking people.” started to come on. But I said to myself, “Self, this is for you. He’s doing his thing; you’re doing yours. There’s no difference.” And you know what? I was right!
It was great! That was a huge step forward for me, to just stay there comfortably doing my “old lady fast walk”, even if it wasn’t that fast, while he did his “young fella running like hell” run.
We can only be right where we are. If we aren’t there, we aren’t anywhere. Right now, I’m a too-heavy aging lady. I will be thinner, but I will never be younger. And that’s okay. I’m where I’m at right now. The great thing is, I like it!