Friday, May 06, 2011
Expectations: I can feel them creeping in. This happens all the time and one of the reasons I am really working on stopping negative self-talk. I am reaching the end of the first week of eating 100% clean ("Stripped" style) and I have these feelings of anxiousness and self-doubt. Like, it's been to good to be true to have had such a great week and waiting for the crash and burn. I have atleast identified them due to these expectations. NOt sure what the expectations are per se, but it has been a great eating and exercise week. So, I'm not sure what I'm expecting to see physically. This is where i get off track. It's not just about the physical results or the scale, but the health of it and what I learn through it about my mind and body.
I wont' be weighing myself until Sunday and take measurements, so I know I have nothing to go off of other than my negative self-doubt that is creeping in. I do see little changes though. This is where normally my bulimic tendencies would creep in and take over, but not this time! So, atleast I have identified the source of my subconscious now conscious anxiety and issues. It's not strong the anxiousness, but I feel held back a bit. I am thankful for being aware of it.
So, how am I going to combat these feelings? Well, by
#1. Keep eating clean and eating for my health.
#2. Tell myself to not get excited over something that doesn't make sense. It's not rational for me to be anxious when I have been doing everything right and seeing changes. My body is going to change at it's own rate and this is about healthy changes and taking care of my body. I have atleast accomplished that this week....being more self-aware and really over coming alot of negative self-talk!
#3. Get in a great workout to feel strong and remind myself how much I can beat myself up in a "good" way not a "bad-negative-self-talk" way.