I am fat (and I don't mean PHAT)
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
Yep, I said it. And I'm not sorry.
In the past 18 months I cannot BELIEVE how I've let myself go. I keep telling myself "Oh, it's only about 10-15 lbs." ONLY 10-15 POUNDS?!?! Really? Since when is gaining back all the weight I worked hard to lose acceptable? ONLY?!
I put on a pair of pants today that a year ago I needed a belt to keep over my ass. This morning they were so tight that it's uncomfortable to wear them!
I went on vacation last week and had to buy new shorts in a bigger size because none of my shorts/capri pants fit me from last year.
Top it all off with the fact that I just stopped my birth control because I'd like to get pregnant in the next couple months. At this weight I'm going to be a ballooooooon!!!!
I'm so mad, so angry at myself. My eating habits haven't changed horribly (except for that day I ate 4 waffles for dinner...) but I haven't worked out in months. My treadmill has been in a corner since November, unused.
Where the hell is my water? I need a drink.