Tuesday, May 03, 2011
As you've probably noticed by my lack of blogs lately, I've been kinda MIA. I did have moments where I came back to check in on the Sparkteams that I lead, but as for my own participation on SP, it's been half-hearted at best. April was NOT a good month for me... mentally, physically, emotionally... and because of all of that, it ended up not being nutritionally either, as I returned to some very bad habits from the past... (can anyone say "binge eating"???)
Well... I believe in honesty, and in owning up to our mistakes... so here's the very bad numbers from April:
Weight: 14.1 lbs. GAINED
Body fat %: 2.27% GAINED
Upper arms: 0.25 in. GAINED
Chest: 1 in. GAINED
Waist: 1 in. GAINED
Hips: 1 in. GAINED
Thighs: 0.5 in. GAINED
Calves: no change
As you can see, I've got ALOT of work to do to get back to where I was... but I am determined to do so. After a couple of major binge episodes the past 2 nights, I had an "awakening" last night (or shall I say early this morning)...
At approx. 2am this morning, while I was in the process of inhaling a Big Grab bag of Cheetos, for some unknown reason it finally dawned on me just exactly what I was doing to myself. I realized how I was undoing all of the hard work that I had done over the past couple of years... esp. these past few months when I was recuping from surgery. Not exactly sure why I had this epiphany at that specific time, but I'm glad that I did because I've already done enough damage!
So... as of today, I am back on track, back on the wagon, and more determined than ever to FINISH THIS JOURNEY!!!
I apologize to those of who that have told me you look up to me for my success and my determination... but I guess this shows that nobody's perfect and that this is a daily struggle! I promise that I will get back to ONEderland ASAP... and that I'm not stopping this time until I finally reach my goal weight!