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April Results... and Confession...

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

As you've probably noticed by my lack of blogs lately, I've been kinda MIA. I did have moments where I came back to check in on the Sparkteams that I lead, but as for my own participation on SP, it's been half-hearted at best. April was NOT a good month for me... mentally, physically, emotionally... and because of all of that, it ended up not being nutritionally either, as I returned to some very bad habits from the past... (can anyone say "binge eating"???)

Well... I believe in honesty, and in owning up to our mistakes... so here's the very bad numbers from April:


Weight: 14.1 lbs. GAINED

Body fat %: 2.27% GAINED

Upper arms: 0.25 in. GAINED

Chest: 1 in. GAINED

Waist: 1 in. GAINED

Hips: 1 in. GAINED

Thighs: 0.5 in. GAINED

Calves: no change


As you can see, I've got ALOT of work to do to get back to where I was... but I am determined to do so. After a couple of major binge episodes the past 2 nights, I had an "awakening" last night (or shall I say early this morning)...

At approx. 2am this morning, while I was in the process of inhaling a Big Grab bag of Cheetos, for some unknown reason it finally dawned on me just exactly what I was doing to myself. I realized how I was undoing all of the hard work that I had done over the past couple of years... esp. these past few months when I was recuping from surgery. Not exactly sure why I had this epiphany at that specific time, but I'm glad that I did because I've already done enough damage!

So... as of today, I am back on track, back on the wagon, and more determined than ever to FINISH THIS JOURNEY!!!

I apologize to those of who that have told me you look up to me for my success and my determination... but I guess this shows that nobody's perfect and that this is a daily struggle! I promise that I will get back to ONEderland ASAP... and that I'm not stopping this time until I finally reach my goal weight!
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MAMAANGE 5/13/2011 2:37AM

    You have no idea how much this helped me! I'm struggling, also....and what gets me is, I KNOW what to do...just friggin' do it! So hard sometimes. Thank you for posting!
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SHANTODD420 5/6/2011 7:22AM

    Sonja way to go on owning up to what has happened in the last month. We all have lapse and life happens. Although you know how to change it and you are doing that one day at a time. Hope you have a great weekend.

Shannon

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BRILYNN79 5/6/2011 1:23AM

  So proud of you for putting it out there!

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ELEGANTFLOWERS 5/4/2011 11:53PM

    You can do this! Let's make this the best month ever!!!! emoticon

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ROCKINMOM77 5/4/2011 9:19AM

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KIMBERTA99 5/3/2011 11:01PM

    I am glad you are finding your way back.....I have those times too!! I think alot of us do..sometimes it takes seeing the scale or just out of the blue!! Now that you are back on track I am sure you will be in onderland soon!!

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AKORAL48 5/3/2011 9:27PM

    First let me comment on your new background...hot!! Love it!!

I'm sorry to hear you had such a bad month, but please don't feel like you have to apologize. You are still inspiring, even more so to know that you struggle each day too. You said it, no one is perfect, so let's just help each other stay on track and be the best we can be!!



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LISA_TRYING 5/3/2011 7:17PM

  Excellent!!!

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HIKETOHEIGHTS 5/3/2011 6:27PM

    No Apologies to us. We are here for you just like you are here for us. The only person you answer to on your weight the girl in the mirror. From your blog, you have had a rough month and that happens, it is life. The good part is you have picked yourself up and thrown yourself back on track! emoticon Hey have you checked out the spring bootcamp? it is fun it is 1 video a day. I just joined it is very encouraging.

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TURTLETALK 5/3/2011 5:42PM

    I am glad to see you are back in the game. emoticon

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