Monday, May 02, 2011
On Thursday of next week I'll be going in for cosmetic surgery. It's described as a tummy tuck, but is modified in the fact that a partial body lift will be part of it.
I'm excited about the surgery. It'll be nice to have a good portion of the extra skin removed from my body. It will also take another 15 pounds off my body as well. I will walk in looking one way and walk out looking another. A little strange for the mind to wrap around and I know it will take me some time but still I'm excited about it.
At the same time, there's part of me that is sad. I'm sad that I allowed myself to get in this condition. As much as I'm thankful that the medical community has pushed to make these surgeries covered by insurance, part of me feels like they shouldn't have to. Taking off the weight has taken a long time and fixing the side affects to my body that being obese caused will take just as long.
I knew all this when I started and decided then that I needed to lose weight no matter what I looked like under the clothes. I'm glad I made that decision and have not regretted it. Still, I can't shake the feeling that I didn't need to be in this situation. We are stuck with the choices we make and God has given me a second chance to make it right. We are not always given second chances.
So, I'm going to take this second chance and make the most of it. There's no turning back as far as I am concerned. Hopefully, I'll put up before and after pictures after I feel a bit better.