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I am never going to be a "skinny gal"

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Today during lunch I decided to do some retail therapy.  I have been feeling a bit down for the past few days and thought I would treat myself to shopping.  I bought a few things and found a few that were on sale.  I was feeling pretty good.  Then, I walked out of the store and there were these tall, young, thin stylish women walking in.  Geez what a way to make me feel like a frump!  Even when I reach my target weight, I will still be short and curvy..and older than them.

Perhaps I am going through my midlife crises...perhaps I am just over whelmed by the stresses and frustrations of my life..who knows...but wow...did that take the wind out of my sails.

I spent much of the afternoon mulling this over.  I have to accept myself for who I am.  I need to get comfortable in my skin.  I know this...I am working on it...and frankly somedays are better than others.  Geez...I am 41 and entirely to old (in a "good no nonsense" way) to be feeling this.

This not a "poor me" blog.  More of a "get over myself" blog. Anyways, I feel better just saying it.
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FITFORMYKIDS 4/29/2011 9:10AM

    I like your message. I hope you are able to believe it about yourself. Similiarly, I look at the perfect bodies at the gym and know I weill never look like that. I used to aspire to that and feel less than for never making the cut. Now I just want to stop binge eating and consistently stay one size. Have a good weekend!!

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THENOTORIOUSB 4/28/2011 10:53PM

    I think the same thing sometimes... that my youth was spent on being fat... wasted, is really the word that usually comes to mind.
And I, too, will be short and curvy when I hit my target weight... but I will be strong of body and strong of character... both of which I have and will continue to develop because of my struggles.
And if that doesn't make me feel better, I just think, "I've lost 28 lbs in the last two months, what the heck have *you* done?"
And somehow that makes me feel better about "those" girls.
Best wishes to you!

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TELLYSAYS 4/28/2011 9:25PM

    It's always good to have a place to spill those feelings. I understand how you feel. I am 47 and it is so hard to type that number. I think of how I used to be and even though I am older and wiser and so much happier we can't help but miss it.

You are not a frump. You are you and that is a gift!


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