Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Ugh. I am so tired of jumping up and down the scale - gaining 15 lbs every fall and winter and losing 20 in the spring and summer. This has happened - starting with the spring of 2009 - every year!!! So I could be well below 200 lbs by now if I'd just smartened up already!
I have kept off 30 or so lbs, for the most part, since initially losing 35 lbs in 2009. But my goal is to be at least below 200 - right now that's 23 lbs to lose - in 6 months, and I know I can do it, since I lost 35 in 3!
When I started slacking off in the fall, I was 208 lbs, the smallest I've been in over 10 years (I remember going to the gym at 19 thinking I was 185, like I used to be, and being horrified to find I weighed 210!), and it felt great. It's the only time I've felt like I was really myself again ... I was wearing my favorite skirt of all time, my jeans not only fit but weren't super tight on my legs and there was no muffin-topping whatsoever! 14 lbs gained from September to now and those jeans are just barely fitting; they are tight everywhere :( And I have been finding myself down that dangerous slope, the "Screw it" thinking that I'm sure many people get sucked into. I am sure I don't want to know just how many calories I've been eating every day in cookies and other crap!
So today, this is my pep talk to myself: I can do this. I WILL do this. I can be 200 lbs ... I can be 185 lbs!
I am going to stop eating gluttonously.
I am going to exercise.
I am going to snack on fruits and veggies.
I am going to drink water.
I am going to be fit, and healthy, and hot! LOL (Okay my husband will tell you I am hot now. I feel pretty, but not hot - not yet!)
So help me God