I'm not dying here!
Friday, April 22, 2011
I'm not dying fat!
In case the title freaked out a few I'll tell you where it came from...
In church a week ago I was feeling the lowest I've felt inn a long time. It was a struggle to wake up a struggle to sleep no motivation to do anything exhausted all the time.
However I did not feel hopeless!!
Since Jesus came into my life I have hope no matter how bad things get. No cliche here... there truly is a light burning within me that keeps me moving on. This is what keeps me from giving up.
Among the things said in church last friday my pastor started to speak my heart... describe my despair... I know there were others in church the word was for as well but it certainly was for me! She made the statement "I'm going to get through this, I'm not dying here!"
Those words struck a chord in my heart. I connected with them and owned them. I started to shout "I'm not dying here, I'M NOT DYING HERE!!!
God in His goodness did a work in my heart that night. I started to receive strength... and even more hope... and determination.... that I WILL make it through this... VICTORIOUS!
Naturally by "this" I mean more than my weight.... my weight is only an external manifestation of internal struggles. But when this is all over I'll WIN. It will be a slim me collecting my trophy of victory!!!
I had stopped blogging because I do not like negative blogs. It is only so long people will encourage you for before they walk away because you pull them down. So I only blog when I can find something good to say.
Be blessed my spark friends.
I'm never giving up
I'm never giving in