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I'm not dying here!

Friday, April 22, 2011

I'm not dying fat!

In case the title freaked out a few I'll tell you where it came from...

In church a week ago I was feeling the lowest I've felt inn a long time. It was a struggle to wake up a struggle to sleep no motivation to do anything exhausted all the time.

However I did not feel hopeless!!

Since Jesus came into my life I have hope no matter how bad things get. No cliche here... there truly is a light burning within me that keeps me moving on. This is what keeps me from giving up.

Among the things said in church last friday my pastor started to speak my heart... describe my despair... I know there were others in church the word was for as well but it certainly was for me! She made the statement "I'm going to get through this, I'm not dying here!"

Those words struck a chord in my heart. I connected with them and owned them. I started to shout "I'm not dying here, I'M NOT DYING HERE!!!

God in His goodness did a work in my heart that night. I started to receive strength... and even more hope... and determination.... that I WILL make it through this... VICTORIOUS!

Naturally by "this" I mean more than my weight.... my weight is only an external manifestation of internal struggles. But when this is all over I'll WIN. It will be a slim me collecting my trophy of victory!!!

I had stopped blogging because I do not like negative blogs. It is only so long people will encourage you for before they walk away because you pull them down. So I only blog when I can find something good to say.

Be blessed my spark friends.
I'm never giving up
I'm never giving in
No retreat
No surrender!!
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    Wonderful blog. emoticon
    2496 days ago
  • CICI510
    I too have faith in you!!!
    2496 days ago
    excellent blog, thanks for sharing and I kind of quoted you in my blog today because what you say about people only encouraging you for so long is true.
    having a bad day and sharing once in a while isn't a bad thing but when it is every blog I do personally stop reading anything that person writes after a while and I certainly stop commenting because I get to a point where I want to just tell them to get over it but I know that is not a good attitude to have either, so I have to walk away.
    2496 days ago
  • REJ7777
    emoticon I can feel your renewed energy all the way up here in Canada! I'm so glad you've got your Spark back. And know what? I'm not dying here either! We can DO this! emoticon
    2496 days ago
    Lin I've known for a long, long time YOU ARE NOT A QUITTER!
    You have a resilience I admire and I applaud you for hanging in there.
    We all have a whine at times and that's when the spark community comes into its own.
    We will be here if you falter hun, you're only human after all.

    Keep sparking, I know emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2496 days ago
    You WILL make it, I know! My 'knot at the end of the rope' for times when I'm feeling particularly down and hopeless is another one from Philippians, 'For I am confident of this very thing, that He Who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.' God started something good, and He's going to see it through all the way; never forget that!
    2496 days ago
  • JESS0107
    Great attitude! I must share my favorite verse that kept me going. I can do all things through Christ which strengthenth me. Phil 4:13. He also promised us that he would never leave us nor forsake us. All have have to do is to trust in him. Through Christ, that is how I lost my weight and no one else deserves the praise! I hope you have a wonderful Easter weekend!
    2496 days ago
    Awesome blog! I have faith in you!

    2496 days ago
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