coming back with my tail between my legs

Thursday, April 21, 2011

I'm going to try this again. I got on the scale yesterday and the number had climbed to 216. My back hurts nearly all the time now because of my weight and instead of trying to lose, I've been taking too many pain pills.

My life is a mess right now and my head is a mess, too. Losing weight won't make everything perfect, but getting back into eating right and taking care of myself will help my self-esteem and improve my mood, not to mention virtually cure my anxiety.

I felt so good when I was on SP last year. I don't know what happened. I just fell off the wagon and didn't look back until I gained everything back plus more. I feel like such a failure.

But I'm back. I hope. I will need strength to do this, strength I'm not sure I have.
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    glad your back! you can do it!!!
    2192 days ago
    You have what it takes to do this. Welcome back!
    2345 days ago
    emoticon back. We are so happy to have you with us again. Life Happens! You have made the decision to come back and be back on track. emoticon emoticon
    2345 days ago
    Glad to see that you are back! Don't be too hard on yourself, we all mess up, we all fall off the wagon, we all go through craziness! You can get back on track and you can be successful!! Just keep moving forward! *hugs*
    2347 days ago
    Glad you are back! Just jump in where you are and start taking care of yourself because you deserve the best!
    2347 days ago
  • MAUREEN912
    I think it's great that you came back and please don't think of yourself as a failure. You're human and we're all here for the same reason, we want to be healthier. I'd say we're all a bunch of winners and that you'll be back on track in no time!!

    2347 days ago
  • JONEIL513
    You're not a failure because you came back! The only way to fail is to give up. You can do this, remember how good it felt to take care of yourself? remind yourself of that everytime you want to give up. I have faith in you, welcome back!
    2347 days ago
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