Thursday, April 21, 2011
I'm going to try this again. I got on the scale yesterday and the number had climbed to 216. My back hurts nearly all the time now because of my weight and instead of trying to lose, I've been taking too many pain pills.
My life is a mess right now and my head is a mess, too. Losing weight won't make everything perfect, but getting back into eating right and taking care of myself will help my self-esteem and improve my mood, not to mention virtually cure my anxiety.
I felt so good when I was on SP last year. I don't know what happened. I just fell off the wagon and didn't look back until I gained everything back plus more. I feel like such a failure.
But I'm back. I hope. I will need strength to do this, strength I'm not sure I have.