Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I don't really believe in coincidences. I believe everything happens for a reason, and it's up to us, to figure out what we're suppose to learn from it.
When I woke up and got on the scale and saw that I had managed to gain back the 8 pounds I had lost since January 1st! I felt sick. I wanted to scream! And then I wanted to eat a pie! Because pie makes everything better! But instead, I decided to look for help. At that point, I really didn't understand all that SparkPeople is or what it has to offer. I had mainly used the iphone app to track my calories. But after spending some time, reading articles, and looking at motivational pages. I decided it was time to join a team! The first team I looked at was "Done Being the Fat Girl!" Perfect title! Did I know what a team was? No. Did I know what you do as a member? No. But I clicked join this team. Then I got off my computer and took our dog for a walk.
There was really heavy traffic, and some construction, so I couldn't get across the street, to take our normal route. So I just turned right. I walked up a street I'd never been on, and even though I had no idea where I was going, I just kept walking. I ended up at a cute little park. There was a beautiful, really thin, women walking around dropping cones on the ground. She stopped what she was doing and walked over to talk to me about my dog. Turned out she was setting up for a women only, drop-in (no commitment) Boot Camp. She invited me to join. I thought yeah right! Two of my least favorite things, exercise and being out in public. I said thank you, but had no intention of ever going back!
Then, the next day, while having lunch with a friend, (she has recently lost 30 pounds, and looks amazing!) I mentioned the boot camp to her. She got excited and told me that she'd go with me. Every fiber of my being wanted to say "No Way!" but what came out of my mouth was a very meek, "well ok then." Now this friend of mine, has a crazy busy schedule. I thought for sure she'd cancel. After all, she had cancelled lunch at least 5 times. But she called that first morning and confirmed she'd be there. She made it to 3 classes with me, before her schedule changed; but those 3 classes made all the difference in the world. I will be forever grateful to her.
Joining the Done Girls team, and going to that first BC class, sparked something in me. This last month, I've found myself doing a lot of things I'd normally never do. I can hear Dr. Phil, saying that thing he says, "If you do what you've always done, you're gonna get what you've always got." I think about how different these last 30 days would have been for me, if I had eaten that pie, or if I had taken my normal route and never found that park.
Even though, my scale hasn't moved down as much as I had hoped it would, it's moving. When I don't feel proud of myself for losing 1 or 2 pounds, like I should. My husband has volunteered to drop a 1 pound weight on my foot., to help me really feel it's worth. I've realized that my non-scale-victories are just as important as that scale. I'm saying yes to myself, and no, when it counts. Everyday I'm making better choices. I've stopped hiding. I'm making friends, on SP and out in the real world that I never would have made, and I'm grateful to have their support on this journey. I'm definitely looking forward to the changes I will make over my next 30 days, one day at a time.