Tuesday, April 19, 2011
the good news is I haven't gained any weight...the bad news is I haven't lost any either. I just can't get wrapped around this whole thing. I have all the best intentions...the best laid plans...but with everything going on with work (totally crazy ridiculous right now), home and the kids (which will never go away being as important to me as my family is...no matter how old the kids get), money matters (the whole "there's never enough to go around" syndrome), trying to save for vacation in June with the whole family (mom & dad, my sisters and their familes, my aunt...all beach-side for a week...can we say heaven on earth?) trying to get Shane's diabetes controlled and the right meds mix with his heart and anxiety issues thrown into the pot...
I could go go on and on but I'm sure you get the idea...I believe it's called "life"...I know I can't do all for everybody and I know I can't forget about me...but even doing some for all and just trying to keep my head above water so to speak I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels getting nowhere fast not losing headway but not making any headway either.
I know I just gotta keep plugging away...have faith...there is a light at the end of the tunnel...it's just such a long LONG trip. Not that I want to give up by any means but it just gets so frustrating sometimes....like when is all my hard work (at everything I do...cuz I don't do anything half-assed) going to start paying off? hmmmmm?