BLC16 - Week One
Monday, April 18, 2011
"What was the first week like for you? What worked and what didn't? What do you need to do differently next week?"
I posed this question on the thread, as it is something I really need to think about. I didn't want to clutter up the poor Bombshells with my confused thinking.
So the first week was like a non-week. I have hardly been committed to making changes at all, and I really, really need to do so. I am trying to figure out why part of me doesn't want to. For the last 18 months I have been able to stabilise my weight and eat without really policing myself. However, the wheels fell off this year, and I have gained about 10lbs pretty quickly. I know that I can lose weight and I do enjoy exercise when I get into it, but I am having a really hard time, even though I have set up accountability all over the place. And right now I even have the luxury of time, which I won't have once I start work in May. I think I am really stressed about the new job, the longer hours (my kids!), the higher level of responsibility and accountability. Even though it is what I have really wanted for along time, I am also scared about not measuring up. I know that I can do it, but part of me is being the whiney, needy, lazy, immature slob that lurks in my head. I know that I am tired, but in a way, that is self-inflicted.
So, next week will be much, much, better, because I am committed to making changes and being a much better me than I have for a while!
(Man, that feels better!)