I am a complete creature of habit. I eat pretty much the same thing for every meal for months; until the season changes or Costco stops carrying a favorite item. The only exception to this is if I try a wonderful sample at Costco (can you tell I love Costco?) and need to try it. This usually lasts until I use up the three gallons of the new item and I revert to what I really like.
So this morning, as I measured my coffee creamer into a tablespoon, I got to wondering how much creamer I used BEFORE SPARK. I already feel like there is an imaginary line that I can cross with coffee creamer. Before you pass the creamer line, when there is too little, the coffee is terrible, but once you cross the creamer line, there can never be too much. I used to pour and pour that creamer in, overcompensating for my fear of not having enough but completely disregarding how much I was pouring in.
Not to self: come back to the fear of not having enough. Was I afraid of not having enough food?
So this morning, as I poured the So Delicious coconut milk creamer into my steaming dark roast French Press cup of coffee, I wondered, "How many calories were my coffees BEFORE SPARK?" Before spark, before spark, before knowing what I was putting in my body, before I realized the input/output thing, before I felt that it MATTERED. (That I mattered???)
Not to self: come back to the idea of me mattering. Why didn't I think I mattered?
I tried to remember what I used to eat. It was hard to remember. But it was also easy. (See previous thoughts on being a creature of habit.) I never tracked food when I wasn't consciously eating. I never analyzed my meals for their balance of proteins, carbs, and fat. I never thought about what fuel my body needed before a workout. I never gave a second of a though to how many carbs I was forcing into my body. I rationalized my daily whole pint of ice cream, or 6 margaritas, or seconds or thirds of enchiladas. I never looked at my consumption over a week, to see that EVERY DAY I was over/ under my goals (but I bet that I was never under back then.)
I just plugged in my regular day's foods into Spark. I entered what I used to eat. I am SURE it is lower than typical, though, because I never resisted free samples of any kind at Costco (hello cheesecake sample day!), I never thought twice about taking a Starbuck's run with a coworker, I never hesitated to stop on my way home from anywhere and grab some Ben and Jerry's Half Baked ice cream. So this food log represents a typical day, plus or minus probably 500 calories of snacks or other COMPLETELY MINDLESS EATING!
Okay, this is kinda small. Here's the breakdown: Calories 3,521; Carbs 466;
Fat 130; Protein 113
When I look at it, most of the foods are okay. I never ate fast food, even back then. But I also had way to many sweets, way too many simple carbs, and way too much total food considering my activity level.
What about you? What did you eat BEFORE SPARK? Can you even remember? Try to remember, track it and then delete it, as I did, but first take a look at what you DID eat B.S.
Haha, the funny thing is that B.S is an abbreviation for a cuss word. I guess that is appropriate, though, since I was negative and hurtful to myself B.S.
Now the time is A.S. After Spark. After I started taking care of myself. After I started MATTERING. Oh, and by the way, take a glance at my real ass. It looks great and is getting sexier daily.