Time for a boost

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Any simple motivational ideas for me?

For some reason I'm having a hard time lately with myself. I've done very well exercising, up to an hour some days. I've noticed that my lungs don't struggle as much as when I began, which is a good sign that it's become a habit. But nutrition is much harder right now. I'm just so tired of food generally. But rather than just eating something healthy, since I feel neutral about it anyway, I go for old standbys.

I was laid off from my job. Apparently my work product was far above expectations, but they pretty much had no more work for me to do. So now I'm a full-time housewife (looking for work). A very different lifestyle from just six months ago, when I working and lawschooling. Still, I'm thrilled that I was laid off, as it was getting hard to look busy with only about an hour of actual work each day and my coworkers secretly seething at me for eating up company resources. So this is a nice break right now.

But my self-confidence isn't great. I should say, it's horrible. I don't think it's any one thing, although I'm sure that my job loss is a subconscious contributor, as well as the fear of not being able to find another one. I also had a dream recently that I was looking at myself 8 years ago, and thinking how wonderful my legs looked (that was at my lowest weight). When I remembered I had that dream, obviously I recalled that my legs don't look that nice. And that sums up how I've been feeling. Every time I see some part of myself, I notice some little puff of fat that I hadn't seen before. Not to mention issues I have about my arthritis, skin, hair, etc. Frustration is normal, but these sort of feelings are definitely unhealthy. So I'm hoping I haven't suddenly lost control over my brain again and have to find new ways to deal with my depression....

Well, the good news is that right now I actually have ample time to handle all these things. My apartment has never been cleaner. I do like being a housewife!
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    I agree with KEEBABE1. Keep a schedule. Knowing you have things that need to be done at a certain time helps give a direction to your life. When I was laid off I spent two weeks getting nothing done, because I thought I had all day to do it, but I never started. Once I started scheduling my day I was amazed at how much I got done and how my attitude changed.
    2514 days ago
    I took my worst photo and stuck it on the fridge. It reminds me to shut the fridge door.

    Really, find a photo where you look bigger than you think you are - amazing how depressingly motivating that can be. (I swear I looked like Jabba the Hud in my pic!)
    2526 days ago
    I know exactly how difficult it can be sitting at home all day every day. Keep concentrating on the positive and successful aspects (i.e. clean house). Be sure to keep a schedule and routine even though you may have all day. Personally, it was really easy for me to say, "Eh, I have all day to workout and wash those dishes." Next thing I knew, it was dinner time and the gym was closed and I never got anything done. Keep up the hard work. :-)
    2526 days ago
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