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Saturday, April 16, 2011

I am really having some ups and downs lately. One day I feel like I can do anything I set my mind to and the next I feel like I should just stay in bed with the covers over my head. There is no real reason for this really. I am healthy, I have a great family, a great job and I have no real problems with finances. I am usually a very happy person. It just seems like the littlest thing is making me feel jumpy or just plain afraid.

Today I thought the world was going to come crashing down on me. Do you know why? Very silly now that it is taken care of but at the time I literally was a mess. I could not find my debit card. I mean logically when I got into my car I knew it was a simple task, call the bank, have them cancel the card. Go to the bank kiosk which happens to be open today and get a new card, go to the machine and print an activities records to see if any damage done. I got home and lost it. I turned into a blubbering crying baby and it front of my adult daughter and son in law! I could not even talk to the person on the bank line, who thought I am sure she was dealing with a nutbar!!!

Happy ending, the card was cancelled, I was able to get a new card, got the records and no issues with our accounts. And now I sit here and wonder, what the heck is wrong with me. Why did I react the way I did? I think maybe stress may be the culprit and I also think I need to look inside to see what else is going on. I need to look at my life right now and see if there are reasons for feeling the way I do. One should not feel this way. I do feel better just getting this down here. This is a first step but I need to look more deeply.

Thanks for listening out there, I know you are there. Take care, I plan to take care of me!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
RENE54 4/29/2011 8:33AM

    Some days are just like that. It was probably just the last straw. You needed a release and now you have had a good cry and it is all better. Take a deep breath and keep on keeping on. emoticon

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KENNY83 4/17/2011 8:29AM

    Realization is the first step in overcoming any internal struggle and it seems you are already there. I'm sorry to hear you had a hectic day, but congrats on making the determination to face it head on. I hope you are successful in all your endeavors. Well, take care and keep on going strong! emoticon

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