So I just finished the Spring 5% Challenge. I met 0% of my goal.

There it is.

This failure gets written down as publicly as the hopes I had in the beginning, because it’s as important. I need both in order to set things right again. I wasn’t always overweight, and didn’t always struggle with the things I do now.



2 recurring problems, unearthed through lots of psychobabble that, lucky you, I deleted from this blog.

1. I’m not sure I deserve the time & attention on myself to work out when others are around, or plan meals well, or to visibly take breaks at work. It means getting “caught” doing something for me.

Yeah, I know that what I do “for me” is also for my family and the people who depend on me. I know it in my head. In my heart & habits? Not so much.

Or it means disturbing someone else. But those someones want me to do this, so that’s no excuse at all.

2. I'm tired. My job is mentally stressful, emotionally draining, and physically fatigue-inducing. I stand most of the time because the best way to avoid reinjuring my hip is to avoid sitting too much. By the end of the day, I’ve got little left to give, and I give it to my family. I don't work out, and even though the daytime meals are great, I undo it all with a quick, convenient, unhealthy overboard snack or dinner.

But wait! There’s a solution to both: Get up earlier and take it outside.



1 recurring theme: I want it the way I want it. I want it like it is in that picture, where I get a minimum 7 hours sleep, there are no deer to distract my dog, and the weather brings minimum 40-degree mornings with no wind or rain, thank you very much.

And besides, are you telling me I only have one alternative?

Boofreakinghoo.
Remember when you said it’d be inconvenient, and you said that’s just too bad? Believe it, baby. And do something Today.