Saturday, April 16, 2011
I got the NO for another job I had interviewed for. I really thought this was the one for me. I don't know how much longer I can keep up the front of bieng positive and trying to keep my chin up. So discouraging. I am packing up now and am losing my home I have lived in for the last 20 plus years. Yes, I have to move back home. Not sure if my Bf will be moving there with me. Between this and everything else going on that's not good the stress ,worry and anxiety is starting to take it's toll. I am really tired of people telling me my whole life that i ma stong person. I am really not it's all just a act. So my eating has been out of control as with the exercise. I am trying to get back on track but can't.
I want the old me back so bad, The happy go lucky fun girl. All I can do is try and I do know that this is a temporary situation and I will not have to live at home forever. Sorry to be such a downer just had to blog tonight. Get it off my chest.
I hope you all are doing well and are having a great weekend.