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so close, yet so far away

Friday, April 15, 2011

I am so close to meeting my first "mini goal". I need to lose 5 more lbs and I can call that goal met. I am finally back on track because of the choice I have made to actually exert effort. I cannot sit back, do nothing, and expect any results. No magic wand waving my way.
I also had some upsetting information shared with me this week. I would normally go crawl up in my bed, pull up the covers, not shower, not go out unless it was time to go to work.
I am pleased that, even though I feel like my insides have been tossed around and stomped on, I have made a choice not to give in to my natural reaction.
I have to face that I have failed in something and it cannot be "fixed". Sometimes everything is not "ok" or just will not "work out". I feel very alone but have turned to a good friend and this website along with work to occupy my mind instead of giving up.
I don't know what will happen from one moment to the next. All I know is that I have choices and am learning how to make better ones.
Keep Sparking.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
EDITOR 5/17/2011 6:59AM

    Oh my, you deserve a hug and a virtual friend saying you can ride the tide and be better for it!

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KATKRAEZY 4/16/2011 7:54AM

    This takes courage. Good for you Janice! :-)

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DJS-DEBBIE 4/16/2011 6:33AM

    Good for you, Janice!

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BEEJAY49 4/16/2011 5:09AM

    I'm glad you didn't give in to your old routine with the stress. One day at a time! HUGS!

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