so close, yet so far away
Friday, April 15, 2011
I am so close to meeting my first "mini goal". I need to lose 5 more lbs and I can call that goal met. I am finally back on track because of the choice I have made to actually exert effort. I cannot sit back, do nothing, and expect any results. No magic wand waving my way.
I also had some upsetting information shared with me this week. I would normally go crawl up in my bed, pull up the covers, not shower, not go out unless it was time to go to work.
I am pleased that, even though I feel like my insides have been tossed around and stomped on, I have made a choice not to give in to my natural reaction.
I have to face that I have failed in something and it cannot be "fixed". Sometimes everything is not "ok" or just will not "work out". I feel very alone but have turned to a good friend and this website along with work to occupy my mind instead of giving up.
I don't know what will happen from one moment to the next. All I know is that I have choices and am learning how to make better ones.