Thursday, April 14, 2011
What does Being the Fat Girl mean exactly? For me, it's a lot more than a number on a scale. It's a frame of mind. It's a state of being. A state of inaction. A state of fear. A state of constant insecurity and self doubt. it also means, putting everyone, and everything else in my life ahead of where I place myself and my needs on my list; and I'm Done Being the Fat Girl! I'm done living my life that way, or more truthfully -- I'm done not appreciating the life I have and being too afraid to really live it. I'm done wishing I were invisible, because being invisible is safe. No one can judge me if they can't see me. I'm done feeling shame, because I'm not wearing the size I wish I were or that I use to wear. I'm done feeling sorry for myself; and I'm done waiting to do anything I want to do, until I lose weight!