Monday, April 11, 2011
Ironic. My last blog post is titled "The Pause". I didn't realize that I was calling in a long "pause" in my program.
It's been an intense several months, filled with travel and all kinds of different work and challenges. I returned last Friday from 11 days in the New Mexico desert at my lowest weight since. ..I don't know. . ..2003 or something. 198.2. I was under 200 pounds. Whoo hoo.
This past week has held more acting out around food than has happened in quite a while. ..certainly since I started this SparkPeople program.
I may overeat once in a while but not binge. Well, one of the nights this week held a big ole bing. .. .potato chips and candy and cookies. ..long after I was full.
In one week I've managed to gain 4 pounds, putting myself squarely back over the line of 200. What the hell?????? What is UP?
More than the weight gain, I don't feel well. I am groggy and tired and I feel sort of lumpy and uninspired. I feel like I want to lay on the sofa all day, eat Sees candies and watch bad movies.
I've got one of the worst cases of "I don't wanna" that I have ever experienced. Morning practice??? Don't make me laugh.
At the start of the week, I wrote that I was climbing back on the horse. . .but man, that horse looks about 100 miles up there. It feels like a hell of a climb.
This sounds really corny but I'm remembering that quote "The longest journey begins with a single step". So I though that I would HOP right back on that horse. Turns out it will be more of a haul than a "hop". The direction is the same.
Git goin Karen.