Monday, April 11, 2011
This chapter, while still inspiring like the others, was a bit more challenging for me. I grew up with an ex-military father. For most of my early life, I was just doing what I was told because that is what was demanded of me. This strict upbringing didn't prepare me for all of the choices I would have to make going into college and beyond. With little structure of my own, other than following orders, a lot of what I have done has been pretty aimless. The only goal I had was to graduate from college and get a good paying job so that I could be independent. I did, in essence, achieve that goal, but had I known what I know now--what I am learning now-- I might have gone a more challenging, but more rewarding route. I chose the easiest path, because I didn't have clear, well-defined goals. I didn't know what I wanted and I certainly didn't know how to get it.
A large part of why I started here at SparkPeople was that I finally decided it was time for me to stop living my life based on the expectations that other people have placed on me. I decided that I am going to take control of my life and live the life that will make me happy. I'm tired of being afraid of what other people think and I'm done with that. I'm tired of being afraid of failure and I'm ready to take that leap and take some risks. If I fail, I'll be a better person for what I learn and if I succeed, then all the better!
I haven't settled on those concrete goals that I know I need to yet, but when I finally figure out what they are, and that will be soon, they will be MY goals and no one else's. And I will follow them to the ends of the earth!