Sunday, April 10, 2011
Between the last Sunday in March and this Sunday the scale shows me a gain of 7 lbs (yup - 2 weeks).
Does the fact that my dr had to put me back on steroids last week aid in that gain? Im sure it does, but, it doesnt make me feel any better.
It still feels like failure - especially because around last year at this time I was so much closer to my goal, that was 3 steroid treatments and tighter eating rules ago though.
I don't wish to become stuck here in disppointment, I know I need to work harder at getting my eating under control. My emotions are still too much a part of how much I put into my body. Im still struggling, havent given up.
In anycase, something wonderful is getting ready to occur.
I'm sill walking - almost 100 miles this year - literally about 6 miles until 100 miles.
If that isnt something to smile about, Im not sure what is. I have an illness that is slowly robbing me of this often taken for granted gift. Im hoping that after this week. I can forever write down that 2011 was the year I walked 100 miles - in less than 6 months. I understand this is nothing to some people, but to me it's a big accomplishment :-).
When I was in school, I'm not sure I walked 100 miles during the entire year.
It's a big accomplishment.
Ive been thinking, writing and reading a little more lately. I came across two quotes, one from Albert Einstein that reminded us that we should seek to become a person of value, rather than a man of success, and the other quote from Mother Theresa who said God did not call us to be sucessful - He called us to be faithful.
I may not be seeing sucess on the scale, but I remain faithful - success will come, value will show its face.
I believe this.