Making it normal...
Sunday, April 10, 2011
As has happened before, I drifted away from Sparkpeople and have returned. I'm taking it really slow. Right now, I'm concentrating on tracking my food, trying to hit nutrition goals. I will start working out again next week, 20-30 minutes a day. I actually wasn't going to blog but noticed I hadn't at ALL in 2011 and just couldn't stand that.
Since I've stopped visiting Spark then returned at least 3 times and I know others have too I'm not going to go into a big "why". Sometimes there is no why anyway. The important thing to me is refocusing and getting healthier in a consistant way. I tend to go full-force, overdo and quit. Every time. I'm already fighting the little voices in my head that say "cut WAY back on calories, do P90X NOW!" Truth is, I'm not ready for p90x right now and would probably hurt myself trying and I'm not interested in dropping pounds as quickly as possible. In fact, with my recent weight gain, I've gained some curves that I'd like to keep so I'm not really aiming at a big weight loss. I want strength and energy though, tone and endurance. And to halt the weight gain, I'm tracking my food so I don't go crazy. My normal had become abnormal. I had been eating out of boredom, out of habit and not hunger. It is time for a better normal to take over. I'm trying to find my way to living a healthier lifestyle. I don't want a total makeover of the life I'm living now but there are things I need to do differently and it's time to work on them. So here I go again, embarassed that there is an "again" but I would rather be back "again" than "never"!