Saturday, April 09, 2011
I just took a poll on here and it asks what you're motivation is. Of course I'm looking for 'myself'. Don't get me wrong, I value all that I know and love, but your opinion just doesn't mean as much as mine does.
I gave up worrying about what everyone else thought about three years ago (and 150lbs). My hubby can make me feel beautiful with a few words. And I love it. But what I love more is knowing that the only thing that honestly kept me going, was me.
I tried so many times before to loose weight and look better for other people, and it just didn't work out well. Yes, I may have lost the weight, but I gained it all back, with more. I have been slowly going at this for almost 4 years now, and I haven't gained anything. I've been stuck on a plateau for a while, but I didn't let it get me down.
For the first three weeks I had been on here, I got a little discouraged, because my numbers weren't moving. Then I just decided to try to hit my caloric goal. I started getting it closer to 1500, and amazingly enough; I lost two pounds!!
So, my goals for the next few weeks, is to only worry about eating healthier and trying to hit that goal number. I'll do my weekly weigh-in, but I'm not going to stress it. I may not always lose the weight but that doesn't always matter. My jeans have been feeling looser and that's because I lost 1/2 inch off my waist and a full inch off my hips!!
So there!! My scale may not always have the numbers I want on it, but I feel better already. I have higher energy levels, my sugar levels look ok, and I am eating a whole lot healthier than I have in years. And it all comes back to me.
I want this. I want to feel good. Looking good too, but that's ok. I was able to run around the yard with my kids and have a ball. Something I haven't done in all of my son's life before, and he's 8!
Momma feels good and is taking it all in stride. I will do this and I will feel great about it. Let the healthy me keep it up!! I actually like looking in the mirror now. Knowing I fit into it without stepping back a foot is even better. I can and I will do this.